In Which Our Hero Begins To Walk The Road
It's not a small thing. I need to plan. I need to not be impulsive about it. I am a fan of instant gratification, but that's a good way to fuck up a potentially great thing. I need to take my time and do things right. This really changes almost everything for me on a pretty fundamental level, and while that's exciting, it's also pretty scary.
Don't get me wrong, I'm still going to do it, I'm just going to exercise a bit of self control. My friend helped me put things in perspective yesterday. I was kind of complaining about how miserable I am with my job, and kvetching about how I don't know if I'm going to make it until July, which is when my company gives me a big bushel of money as part of the retirement plan. Which I get to keep when I go. So I wonder aloud if it's worth it and she says YES, she's been far more miserable for far less money, and that kinda shut me up.
Because really, I'm a very lucky guy, and I got no business looking gift ANYTHINGS in their mouths/beaks/ingesting orifices. I mean, really. The amount of money I'm talking about is enough to pay (cheap) rent for almost a year. I got no business taking chances with my future if I can help it.
coughed this up at 



































